Monday, October 5, 2009

Final Weigh-In and Other Thoughts

Did my final weigh-in on Saturday morning. Ended up down 20 pounds and 6.5 inches in the waist. You'd think I'd be really happy again but the whole thing just went down crappy. First, I was one pound short of my "half a person" goal (going from 264 to 132 = half a person). I know it's only one pound but some of that final number was sauna work and limited food/liquid intake so I'm really more than a single pound away. Second, after weighing in, the trainer at the desk proceeded to tell my why I wasn't going to win. WHAT THE HELL? He told me there were a couple of people who finished in the 20+ loss category. I asked if they all were as small as me when they started and he said no but he was pretty sure this one guy who weighed 280 pounds was going to beat me. He said the guy was already up to 20 pounds as of last week. Apparently this trainer doesn't get the concept of ratio-based math. The whole time he was talking I was doing the calculations in my head: to equal my percentage of weight lost, this guy would have to lose nearly 37 pounds and since he was only at 20 the previous week, he would have to lose 17 pounds over the course of seven days. I didn't challenge the trainer with these statistics because I was too busy trying not to pass out and get some liquids back into my system. But needless to say it really pissed my off and put me in a funk. I started thinking about the fact that this trainer has been talking about this other contestant before and how close the two of us were when we weighed in 2 weeks ago. It almost seemed like the trainer wanted this guy to win over me. I seriously began to wonder if the trainer was even willing to fudge the numbers to help this guy win.

So I've been a crappy mood all weekend what with me being short on my goal and dissed at the weigh-in and things have just gotten worse throughout Sunday evening. I was all set to take a week off from training to let my body rest but I'm having a harder and harder time with it. I get into this panicked state that I'm going to gain a whole bunch of weight back if I'm not at the gym. I actually ate some fattening food over the weekend (although I couldn't finish most of it) and the idea that I can't immediately get to the gym on Monday to burn it off is freaking me out. Then I start compromising with myself. I thought "Maybe I'll take a yoga class on Tuesday." Stretching isn't really working out and I'm really tight from the intense training. But then I remembered that kickboxing is right after yoga and maybe I should stay for that because it's only 45 minutes and that's not so much. Nevermind the fact that I must've overdone it this last week because my left Achilles tendon really hurts and I should probably be off my feet. Everyone is telling me I've lost enough and that I don't want to get too skinny and blah, blah, blah. Why do they make me feel guilty for wanting to continue working out? Why do I feel guilty if I don't?

Saturday, October 3, 2009

October 3 is the big day

Weigh-in is tomorrow AM. I don't feel nearly as bad as I usually do at this point, with the fasting and the hardly any liquids thing. I'm just tired. I hope this doesn't mean I haven't lost anything extra. I fought hard to get the 2 extra weeks we deserved. I would hate that I wasn't able to make good use of it.

Got the dailymile widget and the Twitter feed on the blog now. Unfortunately the dailymile widget only shows the last workout entered and since you can enter in each activity separately, I often have 4 to 5 entries per day. (What can I say? I try to mix it up when I work out.) Anyway, that means you need to click on the widget to get to my profile which shows all the workouts for the day. The Twitter feed on the other hand will show my last 5 tweets, or more if I want. So it's a nice way to show everyone my Bodybugg stats - keeps me on track.

I'll update with final weigh-in numbers soon.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

An End and A Beginning

So, I’m in the middle of a mind-numbing and I realized “Hey, now is the perfect time to update my blog”, especially since I haven’t put anything out since April. My blogging about this challenge was seriously more pitiful than the last challenge – I bailed 2 weeks in! OK, so straight to the results. This challenge was a little more squirrely than the last one because of how they evaluated success and who the winners ended up being. Obviously I didn’t win but my complaints aren’t a result of bitterness because I placed second again. (Kind of like always being the bridesmaid and never the bride.) Anyway, last time the criteria was the percentage of weight lost (amount lost divided by starting weight). This time, they took percentage of weight lost and added percentage of inches lost off the waist (inches lost divided by starting inches). So, in my case my I started at 162.8 and ended up at 140.8 resulting in a total loss of 22 pounds (again) and a percentage loss of 13.5% and I lost 6.5 inches off my waist (34.5 starting, 28 ending) for a percentage loss of 18.8%. Using their criteria, my total percentage lost was 32.3%. I really dislike their new method of evaluation. First, it puts equal emphasis on weight lost and inches lost from a particular area (the waist). Where you lose (and gain) weight has a strong genetic component. I am someone who puts weight on and loses it all over. But we’ve all seen women who put weight primarily on their lower body (the pear shape) and women who put weight on primarily on their torso (the apple shape). Clearly the apples are going to lose a greater percentage of weight in this area and this can skew the results and I think it shouldn’t have been a part of the evaluation. Another reason why the waist measurements is an issue for me is because one of the participants had just had a baby when she started the competition. Her abdomen was still swollen from the pregnancy and I believe that a good portion of her waist measurement changes were a result of her body going back to normal. According to the results, she did not lose the greatest percentage of weigh lost, but she won based on her waist changes. I feel really bad about the whole thing because my sister was very dedicated and if the challenge had been based solely on percentage weight lost, she would’ve won. But because she didn’t lose a lot in her waist specifically, she ended up placing third. I was worried that it would discourage her, but with support from me and her trainer, she realized that she lost pounds for goodness sake so she’s a winner no matter what! Oh, and one more thing, there were no vacations or other fantastic prizes. In fact, they didn’t really have much for the runner ups; kind of a letdown.

However, I’m doing it one more time. Yep, I know; I definitely have a mental illness at this point. But what can I say? It keeps me motivated and I tend to do really well when things are competitive. And I’m hoping that by the end of this competition, I’ll be at my goal weight and can relax a little bit. What is my goal weight? I’m not really sure. I don’t know where my “happy” weight is. When I was on phen-fen I got down to 135 but I only ate a bowl of Top Ramen for the whole day and was too weak to do any real physical activity. I definitely don’t want to give up exercising and going to the gym. It gives me such a clear head. So, I know I need to balance things in such a way that I’m eating right to support my daily activities but not gaining or depriving myself. If I can get to the 130s that would be great and then I can evaluate how I feel and how hard it is to stay there. When looking at my ending weight from the last competition, it seems like I’m pretty much there. But a lot of that was water and deprivation. Additionally, I intentionally gained a bit of weight that I knew I could lose easily to put me a bit ahead of the game. So my starting weight for this challenge was 153 but the scale in the women’s locker room put me at 155 so I’m looking to that again as my benchmark. That was 6 weeks ago. I’m already down despite the fact that my trainer and I are not in the burning phase right now (more on our plan in another post).

In wrapping up, I want to mention that my mom is also joining me in the challenge. I think when I lost weight in the first challenge she just thought it was because I was obsessed. But when she saw that it worked for my sister, I think she felt that this was something that was achievable and she was ready to make the commitment. I’m also working on having my Bodybugg data (calories burned, calories consumed, and deficits/surpluses) using a Twitter app that should post my BB upload automatically. Having my unadulterated stats out there for everyone to see should help keep me on track since it seems like it’s getting harder and harder to lose as I get smaller and smaller.

That’s it for now. More to come.

(This was originally written 8/11/09 but not posted.)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Day 11 (The 90-Day Challenge)

So, I didn't make the best food choices today and I realized "Hey, maybe this is a sign that I really need to blog and start being more accountable." So here I am. Not that I don't enjoy blogging or that blogging is meant to be a punishment. But the more I'm connected to sharing my experience, the better I tend to do.

It's Day 11 of the new 90-Day Challenge. Some updates about the weigh-in on March 31st - I did take nearly 3 weeks off from working out prior to the start of the competition. I only went to the gym once a week for a half-hour training session. I also ate with gusto. I ate WAY worse than I normally would have but I did this for a couple of reasons. First, I wanted to test myself and see how bad I had to be in order to gain weight back. I also wanted to eat enough unhealthy food that I got sick of it and didn't crave it (which did end up happening). Lastly, I wanted to put on a few pounds before the competition started, you know, as part of the game. Anyway, during those three weeks of not working out and eating tons of junk, I put on about 5 pounds. Not as bad as I thought. Within the first week of the competition I lost it all. That's right, I'm already down 5 pounds. Now granted, some of that could be water weight or shock weight due to switching from not working out at all to 2 hours a day. Still, it's nice to know that I have more control over my weight than I thought I did. I just have to eat sensibly during the week, enjoy myself on the weekends, and if a few pounds come creeping back, I just put in some extra time at the gym for a week or so and the weight is gone. I can't tell you how freeing that is! By the way, my "official" starting weight on their scale was 162.8 but the scale in the women's locker that same day/time put me at 166 and since that scale is the only scale I can use regularly, I'm considering my starting weight to be 166 lbs.

Unlike the previous challenge (The 60-Day Challenge), I'm not going to report day-to-day workout routines and calorie information from the Bodybugg. I think everyone already has a taste of how that works. This time, I'm going to post my Last Measurement Period from the Bodybugg program. Basically, if I weigh-in regularly once a week, the Bodybugg program will tell me how I've done for the week in terms of calories in, calories out, and net deficit or net gain. This information is based both on the weigh-in as well as my Food Log. It's a bit complicated to understand but once I post a screenshot it will become more clear. As far as my workouts go, just know that I'm doing workouts similar to the ones I was doing for the 60-Day Challenge.

Monday/Wednesday/Friday
- 35 Minutes Cardio (Elliptical, Stairmill, or some combination of the two)
- 45 Minutes Weight-Training
- 35 Minutes Jogging or doing intervals on Treadmill
Tuesday/Thursday
- 35 Minutes Cardio (Elliptical, Stairmill, or some combination of the two)
- 45 Minutes to 1 Hour Kickboxing or TurboKick (depending on the day)
- 25 Minutes Jogging or doing intervals on Treadmill

I may post about my workout if I had to do something crazy or something that totally kicked my ass but unless I deviate significantly from the outline above, I probably won't bore you with the details. Besides, I found this really cool widget where you can enter your workouts for each day and it puts it on your page but I can't figure out how to use widgets on my blog - still working on that one. I'm pretty competent with technology but I think it will be an accomplishment if I can get pictures working on here correctly.

I have lots more I want to post but it's almost 2:00am so I guess it will have to wait. Until then . . . .

Missy

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Second Place! (and I'm doing it again)

OK, OK, so I left the blog waiting breathlessly for the results (ha - no one even reads this, but that's alright). I have excuses for not posting but they don't really matter so I won't spell them out. On to the real post . . . .

I got second place in the competition! I'm very happy with the results. I lost more than 22 pounds, a lot of inches, and won 3 months of personal training and 3 months of gym membership. It doesn't sound like a lot but the prizes add up to more than $500 so that's cool. I was right about it being close. In terms of percentage of weight lost, if I had lost another 1.5 pounds I would have won. For a while I regretted not sitting in the sauna for a bit before weighing in but I really do think the woman who won deserved to win. She was much more devoted to eating right than I was. I'd rather punish my body to sweat off the calories than simply eat less of them. But that's my Achilles heel. What's crazy is that the two men who placed first and second didn't lose anywhere near the same percentage as myself and the woman who won. They lost around 7%. How pathetic is that? And here I was thanking my lucky stars that they were separating the men from the women because it wasn't going to be fair! What's even more amazing is that after the "ceremony" was over, my trainer told us that we (me and the woman who placed first) lost the most of any of the other gyms who participated in the contest! While I'm proud of that, I think that deserves more than 3 months of comped stuff, right?

Reading through my previous posts on the contest, you'd think I would never do it again, and yet I'm going back for more. The gym is holding another contest, this time for 3 months (instead of 2), with bigger prizes like vacations, etc. I hadn't planned on participating but my sister saw how "easy" it was for me (she only says it looked easy because I still had cheat meals and didn't have to totally deprive myself to do well), and she wants to do the competition. My sister is only 17 but is overweight like I was. In order for her to do the contest, I have to take her to the gym and she's also asked me to be in charge of her nutrition to help her make better choices (little does she know that when it comes to other people I'm a food Nazi). I figured if I have to take her to the gym and eat what she eats, I'll probably drop more weight so I may as well enter again. My trainer agreed - he's only encouraging a few of his clients to sign up but wanted me to. If I can drop another 22 pounds during the 3 months of the competition, I'll be in the upper 130s which is like holy grail territory for me - heck, if I can get down to 132 I'll officially have lost half of my body weight. So those are my new goals - lose at least 22 more pounds during the competition and the dream goal of getting down to 132. I'm a little apprehensive about being able to reach either of these goals. I know that some of my weight is muscle because I'm wearing about the same pant size as I did when I weighed 135 taking phen-fen. During that time I never worked out and was pretty weak. Anyway, I think I'm starting to get down to those tougher pounds and my body could really start to fight me. Also, after the contest ended I didn't let up on the amount of cardio I've been doing. I'm still doing roughly 2 hours a day/ 5 days a week. I worried that since my body was used to this that I wouldn't see much in terms of changes once the contest started. My trainer agreed and he actually told me today that I should take the two weeks prior to the contest completely off - no gym whatsoever. If I got antsy, he said I could take a TurboKick class or have a maintenance session with him, but other than that to take it easy so my body could rest and heal and get ready for the competition. I couldn't believe it. Although it will feel great to give my body a break, I know I'll start to feel guilty for not going. I have to make a decision about whether or not I'm going to take the full 2 weeks off soon because the contest starts April 1 (I think). He did say that taking time off meant I had to be more careful with my eating - BOOOO! I'll have to do that during the competition anyway, why start being restrictive 2 weeks before the contest even starts? Hmmmm, there's definitely some pros and cons to evaluate in deciding how much time to take off.

I think this post is long enough. I still plan on tackling the other topics I mentioned in the previous post, especially how to deal with people treating you differently once you've lost weight. I've had a lot of experience with that since the contest ended.

Missy

Monday, January 5, 2009

Weigh-In Day / Day 63 (The 60-Day Challenge)

Yeah, yeah, I know I dropped the ball this last month but I have some pretty good reasons. I had finals, which were killer. We're talking multiple 20 page papers; I was writing like a fiend. Then we had to put one of the family cats down because of bladder cancer and I didn't feel like writing much during the days before and after we put her down. After that I was on vacation in California and I didn't have internet access. I got home right before New Years but I've had a cold and again haven't felt like writing. So that's my story (or excuses, depending on how you want to look at it). Anyway, for the most part, I was doing the workouts I've been outlining in my blog pretty religiously (5 or 6 days a week). However, based on my trainer's recommendation I added some time on the stairmill, about 25-30 minutes. So I've been working out for 1.5-2 hours a day on average. The eating has been pretty good, too. I managed to come back from my vacation in Cali without gaining any weight, which was great. For the most part the Bodybugg program has been showing good deficits of 800 - 1300 calories. So that's my summary of the last month.

Had my final weigh-in for the competition today. I lost a total of 22.2 pounds (going from 182-159.8). I also lost 3.5 inches off my waist. Am I happy? Absolutely! Do I think it's enough to win? I'm worried it's not. I know another client that works with my trainer who lost 20 pounds and although I've lost more, I weigh more than her so between the two of us, the percentage lost is REALLY close; we're talking like 12.2% vs 12.8%. Now, the good news is that my trainer came to me last week and told me that the person who wins second wins basically half of the stuff the first place person wins. So if first place is a year's worth of free personal training, second place is half a year of free personal training. I have to be present at the club to win and when I weighed in the guy at the desk told me to make sure I was there because I was in the running for a prize. We'll see. I'll update later tonight.

In the meantime, I wish everyone who's reading this blog a Happy and Healthy New Year! Although the competition is over, I have a lot of other topics I want to write about: workout hair, food porn (don't go to the gutter; I'll explain), the new Bodybugg, hitting major milestones/sharing the story, body rebounding, and others. So stay tuned!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Day 29 (The 60-Day Challenge)

So, back to the old grindstone after a blissful weekend off. I weighed myself at the gym and I lost about a pound over Thanksgiving week. I call that a small miracle and I definitely don't feel guilty about what I ate. But, now I think it's time to kick it into high gear. When I was training today, he asked how close I was to my "goal" weight. But I actually have 2 different numbers I'm shooting for. So I had to explain the difference between my goal weight and my "milestone" weight. My milestone weight is pretty close; probably only about 10 pounds away. The milestone weight is where I will have hit the 100 pounds lost mark. My goal weight would probably be about 15 pounds past that. He's determined to get me to my milestone weight by the end of this contest. If I could just make better choices during the weekends, I think I could make it happen. I've been trying to think about ways to help me avoid eating the "bad" foods until January 5th. I love listening to music and it seems to really motivate me so I'm hoping that plugging into my iPod when I feel like eating something I shouldn't will help. I've also put the flyer about the contest on my fridge, which seems to be working a bit too. At this point I'll beg, borrow, and steal anything that will help me with willpower.

Day 29 Workout (Cardio + Weight-Training
- 20 minute treadmill warmup (intervals)
- 30 minute weight-training session w/ trainer (focus on heavy weights)
- 35 minutes on elliptical
- 33 minutes on treadmill (2 and 2)
- 10 minute walking cool down

Bodybugg program reports 2682 calories burned and 1126 calories consumed for a deficit of 1556 calories.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Day 22 - 28 (The 60-Day Challenge)

Yeah, yeah. I'm summarizing for the past week. Thanksgiving kind of changed things up a bit and I'm working on finals for the next 2 weeks so my time is a bit more precious. But, just so you all can continue to keep track of what I'm doing (and what I'm not), I'm putting in my workouts and Bodybugg outputs. One thing to note right off the bat, I didn't work out on Saturday or Sunday. I did have my alarm set to go to kickboxing on Saturday but when I woke up I was tired and sore. I decided to give myself a break this weekend. It's the halfway point of the contest and I've been working my body hard. I told myself that I would rest this weekend so that I could stay strong for the second half.

Day 22 Workout (Cardio + Weight-Training)
- 12 minute warmup on treadmill
- 30 minute training session w/trainer (circuit training)
- 35 minutes on elliptical
- 32 minutes treadmill routine (2 minutes walk, 2 minutes run on 4.0 incline)

Bodybugg program reports 2790 calories burned and 1132 calories consumed for a deficit of 1658 calories.

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Day 23 Workout (All Cardio)
- 35 minutes elliptical
- 32 minutes treadmill (2 and 2)

Bodybugg program reports 2629 calories burned and 1443 calories consumed for a deficit of 1186 calories.

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Day 24 Workout (Cardio + Weight-Training)
- 35 minutes elliptical
- 40 minutes circuit-training
- 32 minutes treadmill (2 and 2)

Bodybugg program reports 2682 calories burned and 1560 calories consumed for a deficit of 1122 calories.

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The gym was open in the morning for Thanksgiving but I decided not to go. There was too much prep work to do before taking all the food to the relatives. I had a good deal of self-restraint. Didn't go back for seconds; didn't eat all the different side dishes, etc. However I wasn't able to weigh or measure my food so I didn't bother putting it into the Bodybugg program. I'm pretty sure I ate more than I burned for the day.

Day 25 No Workout (Holiday)

Bodybugg program reports 1963 calories burned.

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Day 26 Workout (Cardio + Weight-Training)
- 35 minutes on elliptical
- 40 minutes circuit-training
- 32 minutes on treadmill (2 and 2)
(Also lots of walking around stores and parking lots for shopping on Black Friday.)

Bodybugg program reports 2881 calories burned and 1572 caloires consumed for a deficit of 1309 calories.

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Day 27 Rest

Bodybugg program reports 1839 calories burned and 1395 calories consumed for a deficit of 444 calories.

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Day 28 Rest

Bodybugg program reports 1899 caloires burned and 1565 calories consumed for a deficit of 334 calories.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Day 21 (The 60-Day Challenge)

I had potato salad with my cheeseburger for dinner and then downed half of a Ben and Jerry's frozen yogurt pint. And today was my rest day. Enough said.
@#$^%!

>:(

Day 21 Rest

Bodybugg program reports 1834 calories burned and 1994 calories consumer for a surplus of 163 calories.

(Can I consider it a victory that I made it 3 whole weeks before reaching a "surplus" day?)

Day 19 / Day 20 (The 60-Day Challenge)

Not much to report today. Did my workout as usual. Ate more for dinner than I should have. Same old, same old.

Day 19 Workout (Cardio + Weight-Training)
- 35 minutes elliptical
- 45 minutes weight-training (focus on smaller muscle groups)
- 33 minutes treadmill (new incline interval routine)

Bodybugg program reports 2705 calories burned and 1742 calories consumed for a deficit of 963 calories.

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Got up early to go to kickboxing. I can't believe I've been able to do this 2 weeks in a row. I HATE getting up early on the weekends. I think part of what motivates me is knowing that I tend to fall off the "good eating" bandwagon hardcore on the weekends. Knowing that I'm probably going to eat too much later in the day is definitely a good motivator for getting my workout in, even if it is earlier than I want.

Day 20 Workout (Cardio)
- 60 minutes kickboxing class

Bodybugg program reports 2453 calories burned and 1924 calories consumed for a deficit of 529 calories.